Once again, I've had another failure. My reporting about Water Pollution didn't turn out as expected. To think that I prepared for that the whole weekend! Something was wrong with the fucking computer and we didn't have much time to replace it. So I had to do it without any visual aid, forcibly. And they had to depend on everything I said. I'm not even sure if they really understood what I talked about coz I felt really stupid and with Bon's funny faces distracting me, I think I made a complete fool out of myself. After the second reporter, I think the professor had had enough and asked our group to report again on Friday, back from the start and hopefully with the visual aids. Fuck.

After class I didn't feel like going home yet and earlier today I got the results for my 1st Thermodynamics quiz. No surprise. I got zero out of a hundred without any considerations to the long calculations I made that eventually ended up with the wrong answers. Feeling that my efforts were completely and deliberately ignored regarding my studies, I thought I had to break away from all of it for a while. I went to the mall and bought a new perfume, because my sister took back my Gaultier and after that huge fight between us last night (the biggest since that incident when I stabbed her in the thigh with my pencil in grade school, No.. I'm not violent but she'd really pushed me over the edge then), I know there's no way I could have it back. Then I passed by a poster of this new Katie Holmes starrer, First Daughter. Everyone close to me knows very well how I really liked her from the moment I saw her in the first season of Dawson's Creek, and so I glanced at my watch, it was only a few minutes before 6:30pm so I've decided to go see it. But when I checked the screening schedule, I'd still have to wait 45 mins before the next run of the movie starts so I tried to look for another one with an earlier schedule. I had two options: The Forgotten and Before Sunset. I opted for the latter since it will start 15 minutes earlier than the first. It wasn't the kind of movie I expected it to be.

One thing I've noticed is that the movie was very well-written. The usual mushy elements in a love story movie were totally discarded. It doesn't have those poetic lines of love and affection. I don't even think that the famous phrase: 'I love you' was included in the script. Yet the movie was good. The audience bursted out into laughter and giggles, me included, when the it ended. I don't know if they're also wondering if it really had to end there but I'm sure they liked it, too in as much as I did. I think I want to get a copy of that song the lead female sang in the last scene.

I'm not really sure what I exactly liked about it, to think it's an all-talk movie (you can actually understand the movie with your eyes closed!) but what really got to me was that the movie in general reminded me of someone really special to me.. Ranna. There were many elements in the movie about Celine (the lead character in the movie played by Julie Delpy) and the movie itself that reminded me of her. Especially when Celine said that there's so many things she wanted to do in life like paint, learn to speak Chinese, create songs and play the guitar but always end up doing not much. I reckon Ranna gave a similar line a long time ago. Well in her case, she said she wants to ride a helicopter and a hot air balloon to name a few.The bench, the journal, the books, New York, the endless walk and the endless talk in the movie brought me to those memories I had with her.

*Disclaimer: I am not posting this to get Ranna or to try to get her again, I know now where I stand and she made that clear to me already too many times. I just want to let her know that I never really left her and she was never really forgotten. That's a hard thing for me to do to an exceptionally wonderful woman like her.