room number 16
Monday, June 04, 2007 @ 2:17 PM 2 comments

When Timmy and I decided to be together a year ago, many were surprised. Apparently, I seemed to be the unlikeliest person for her and she was also to me. Many were convinced that our relationship was not bound to last. People said we're both just in it for the thrill and what we have could not possibly lead to something serious. But despite all these challenges, we held on to each other and I am so glad that we did. Now that we're still together I, myself was surprised to realize that what Timmy and I have now is officially the longest romantic relationship I have ever been into in my life and having said that, I also wanted this to be my last.

Early on in our relationship, we had the agreement that the two of us are just having fun. She showed signs that she has already resigned to the fact that she is going to live the rest of her life alone with her two kids and I can say she was a damsel in distress when I met her. I can see in her eyes the wanting to be loved and the loneliness she was going through. At that time, I admit that I wasn't certain of my own feelings. I have always looked at her more as a friend than a lover. Besides that, I was never sure if I was the right person for her. Needless to say, she also needed someone who can help her provide for her growing kids - and needs and I knew I just can't be that - yet, at least.

As time went by, we were able to discover new things about each other. We were able to know more things about each other on a more personal level. And that's when I realized how beautiful she really is and finally, that is where I unconsciously let myself open up to love again.

My relationship with Timmy is something that can easily be subjected to judgment. She is 5-years older than I am, and she is a single mother of two. I, on the other hand, is an unemployed student in my early 20's. One could say that she was just desperate to have someone, another could say that I was in it just for the heck of it. These are the kinds of things that I hear, even from my closest friends and sometimes it really hurts but I guess know better than to argue with them. I think they will never know how Timmy in her own special way has changed my life. I have never paid so much attention about my future with anyone else before she came to me and I guess I would never get tired of saying that she makes me want to become a better man each day. She gives me the power to believe the possibility of the existence of beautiful tomorrows and from the very first day I told her I love her, it has already been my dream to see her succeed as it also became my hope to spend those beautiful tomorrows with her.

As a post-anniversary celebration, Timmy and I went to Volet's resort in Cavite (recommended by my school-friend, Sean), one of those memorable trips I think I would never forget in this lifetime. And on an interesting note, we stayed at the very room, my friends from school, Mina and Flip stayed at about two weeks ago, who were also celebrating their own anniversary.




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